22.01.22

The 22nd of January 2022
That was the first time I laid eyes on you
Although we did not speak for nearly a whole year
Our eyes connect between the reps and suddenly
Suddenly I feel so exposed

But we have met before

Now we're in a beam of light
The whole world spins away
Weightless in outer space it's just you and I
But we come crashing down to earth
You won't give me your number
We get trapped in this strange loop
Throughout the year
When I reach across to you
You smile but pull away

We have met before
But I don't recall your name
You are every kind eyed man
That I cannot make stay
So if I won't have you for long
How about we seize the day?

I'm not going to pretend
That I'm some kind of saint
But I will give you my everything
It's up to you what you do with it
So if I won't have you for long
I think it's best we seize the day

I wonder what I'll have learned
By the time you walk away
Will the lightness that you bring
May my lonesome blues fade away
So if I won't have you for long
It's time to seize the day

What do you say? So it begins

COMING ON STRONG

My baby comes on strong
But it's ok, it's what I want
We meet every night at 8
And we don't get home till late
He says I look like all that he needs

I was happy as a pig in
Happy as a pig in
Happy as a pig in spite of myself
He walks funny but that's ok
He's mine, all mine

He shows me creep shots he took of me
Before we'd even been introduced
He likes the cut of my jib
He likes my extra skinny fit
And on the C10 bus I realise it's love

I was happy as a pig in
Happy as a pig in
Happy as a pig in spite of myself
He walks funny but that's ok
He's always crashing into things

I was so sure
That lightning couldn't strike again
But here you are
To prove me wrong
I have a lover and I have a friend
He's the one I can be chill with

My baby comes on strong but it's ok
He's mine

I asked the listening skies
For someone to make me laugh
And here you are
You were heaven sent
I have a lover and I have a friend
He's the one I can be chill with

LOVE BOMBS

I'm thinking about scaling your fence
And leaving a single red rose by your door
I'm thinking about learning the accordion
And serenading you under your window
I'm thinking about taking you to a West End show
And buying every seat in the house
I'm thinking about my will and testament
And letting it all go to ground

There's an invisible line that goes from your heart to mine
If you close your eyes, can you feel it?
Love bombs love (I feel it)
Love bombs love (I feel it)

There's an invisible line that goes from your heart to mine
Don't tell me that you can't feel it
Love bombs love (I feel it)
Love bombs love (I feel it)

So I shoot my shot
I take next man's spot
And over our heads the stars align
I want to cool you down
I want to rough you up
I want to crawl all over you
Most of the time

I'm thinking about collecting your laughter
And sealing it safe in a jar
I'm thinking about framing the napkin
You bled on and mounting it on my wall

There's an invisible line that goes from your heart to mine
If you close your eyes, can you feel it?
Love bombs love (I feel it)
Love bombs love (I feel it)

There's an invisible line that goes from your heart to mine
Don't tell me that you can't feel it
Love bombs love (I feel it)
Love bombs love (I feel it)

I think it's about time you declared your hand
We haven't got to play these games
I get so scared when I'm in your arms
That one day this will all go away
It's like the whole thing was planned
The jigsaw fell into place
Our love will take over the world
They'll see the blaze from outer space
Outer space

There's an invisible line that goes from your heart to mine
If you close your eyes, can you feel it?
Love bombs love (I feel it)
Love bombs love (I feel it)

There's an invisible line that goes from your heart to mine
Don't tell me that you can't feel it
Love bombs love (I feel it)
Love bombs love (I feel it)

PIGWIG

That was the moment I knew
I’d fallen for you
Our summer of love
Pigling
We take your car to the beach
I load up on treats
as the motorway rolls

My baby’s obsessed with the coast in disarray
He wants to see the concrete and grey
Seems he’s happiest amongst the disrepair
He’s in love with decay

When we arrive at the beach
he says he’ll treat me
to a 99 with two scoops
Sound bath by the sea
we lie feet to feet
as the sound of the gong washes over us

I told Andre I can’t see him again
It just doesn’t feel right anymore
There’s only so much of me to go around
And pigling I have been found
Everyday is such a vibe
Everyday that we’re alive
Everyday is such a vibe
And it’s getting better
He’s tugging on my arm like a heartstring
He’s filling my days with wild imaginings

My baby’s obsessed with podcasts on success
About the ones who make it
and the ones who don’t
About the ones who come close
they can almost taste it
But don’t have what it takes to seize it

You have found your Hobie brown
I have found my pigling bland
You have caught a falling blossom
in the palm of your hand

I told Davide I can’t see him again
It just doesn’t feel right anymore
There’s only so much of me to go around
And pigling I have been found
Everyday is such a vibe
Everyday that we’re alive
Everyday is such a vibe
And it’s getting better
He’s tugging on my arm like a heartstring
He’s filling my days with wild imaginings

That was the moment I knew
That was the moment I knew
That was the moment I knew
That I’d been
That was the moment I knew
That was the moment I knew
That was the moment I knew

We drive back from the sea
before the night hits
My baby is worried about his weak eyes
So I hold his hand
all the way home
I need him to know
that I’m with him

On the 4th date
he plays a trick on me
I go up to his floor
but he’s playing dead
Lying still in the hallway
I panic
but then I see his smile

Is this It? I think it is
Is this it? I think it is
With those shark black eyes
he sees my soul
Is this It? I think it is
Is this it? I think it is
Oh pigling
here we go again

That was the moment I knew
That was the moment I knew
That was the moment I knew
That I’d been
That was the moment I knew
That was the moment I knew
That was the moment I knew
That I’d been found
That I’d been found

LAGOON BLUE

Blue, it was lagoon blue
Your 57 Ford Anglia
You picked me up in it
Your horned rimmed glasses get in the way
So we do air kisses
Let me breathe you in

In the time it takes for two ticks to go blue
It seems I'm smitten
It seems I'm into you
He does it on purpose
He wants to make me wait
I could wait a lifetime for him

He says he likes the way I say his name
And I like the way he says mine

I choose you with grace
I choose you with sensitivity
I choose to reveal
Day after day

It was blue
Cerulean blue

We watch the tankers fade from our view
He asks nothing of me
I ask of nothing of him
Let the shore we walk on guide us

He says he likes the way I sigh
When his hand brushes against mine

I choose you with grace
I choose you with sensitivity
I choose to reveal
Day after day
I choose you with love
I choose you with hunger in my heart
I choose you today and all of the days

And if you feel overwhelmed
If your prone to doubt
To apprehend
Take my hand
Run with me
Let's feel the blood in our cheeks

This break of routine has shown me how great these days can be
It's made me forget everything
This day by your side has shown me how sweet this world can be
You've made me forget everything

If I could just steal these hours from days
To feel you with me in every way
And I feel right by your side

The night descends so we head in
To watch a studio Ghibli film
I fall asleep on your sleeve
With those three word
In my dreams

MUSCLEWORKS

Bodies aren't just for being adored
They can bring pleasure too
I wish that I could do for you
What that place does for you

I'm starting to recognise the voice
You use when you're lying to me
We lay like twins in your safari print sheets
Keeping our hands to ourselves

But there's something I need to ask you

Who is he?
There's a boy that's watching us
Who is he?
You go silent when he's close
Who is he?
That boy's still watching us
I know we all have pasts but who is he?

Bodies aren't just for being on display
They can bring pleasure too
He's making eyes on the gym floor
With boys that look like me
Such muscles mask joints seizing up
Our lover's turning to stone
No, we mustn't wake your flatmate up
So it's another early night tonight

So it's important you don't lie to me right now

Who is he?
There's a boy that's watching us
Who is he?
You go silent when he's close
Who is he?
That boy's still watching us
I know we all have pasts but who is he?

Please don't lie to me
There's a boy that's watching us
Please don't lie to me
You go silent when he's close
Please don't lie to me
That boy's still watching us
I know we all have pasts but who is he?

Who is he?
That boy's still watching us
Please don't lie to me
That boy's still watching us
Please don't lie to me
That boy's still watching us
I know we all have pasts but who is he?

Who is he?
Who is he?

CLARK KENT

Some people think they see a hero in you
I thought it too, but I see it's just not true
I've seen under the hood
That body's a temple, but the mind is a maze
Trapped inside a labyrinth
Guinea pig inside a cage
I've seen the real you on your brother's dirt bike
The things he'd do to you beggar belief
It started as an inkling
But now it's much more
The mind's most powerful
When it conspires against itself

The mirror sees
But he can't bring himself to look
At his own face
Are we in your lucid dream a little dream?
Just like the snake eating itself
How can any of this be real
If you've never known true love?

They should be taking you seriously
Your way's the best way, why can't they see?
So you play with Beatrix Potter figurines
They remind you of your childhood
And they do not answer back
(hey)

I had a dream
The bridge was red, white and green
You were trapped in a phone booth
You couldn't get out, I couldn't get in
What does it mean that you're being kept from me?
Can you really be something I rely upon?
I can help you
If you let me

But sometimes, when we're alone, Clark
It feels like there's something you're not telling me

The mirror sees
The mirror sees
The mirror sees
How can any of this be real?
If you've never known true love

WORST BIRTHDAY EVER

You were right
There is a coldness in me
And it doesn't leave
When you hold me
I met the real you
On the last day of our love
On the worst birthday ever
Sat on your parents' farm

Do you remember
Lying on your bed?
Whispering to me
Your love could never change
You said there was nothing I could do
To kill the feeling that flows through you
What you don't remember?
Well I remember

For he was born on New Year's Day
He's always hated January
We made it to Christmas but not new year
As the cadaverous queens rub their hands in glee
As the rumours go 'round SE16
He's always hated January
But now he's ruined it for me too

Your brother was a bully
But your father's a pig
No wonder you turned out
The way you did
January always leaves you blue
It would have been funny
If it wasn't all true

But it was
Every word of this is true
Shame on me
But shame on you too
For you betrayed me
With your silence
But your dad got his wish
His gay son's no longer in love

NOT YOUR PROBLEM

Where to begin?
Seems you cut me off
Before true love set in
But I wrote things down
See, I had a feeling this would come around
Good thing I never changed
See I never fully bought what you were selling
My baby don't tell the truth
But it's ok, I can be fake too

1 for the memory
2 for the fantasy
3 for the year you stole from me
4 for the songs I can no longer listen to
5 for the dreams I can no longer dream
See you were in love with the idea of love
But I see now you don't have what it takes
See true love means running towards, not away
Sit down!
I'm going to let you know a few things about yourself
(yeah)

It's giving tame
Like the compliments you made me pay
It's giving lame
Like the feel good films you rate
It's giving same
It's giving same, same, same, same
He's giving brain
He's giving brain drain

Now I'm not your problem
You can do what you please
You can get your kicks without me
You can watch me leave
Now I'm not your problem
You can do what you please
You can get your kicks without me
You can watch me leave
Now I'm not your problem
You can do what you please
You can get your kicks without me
You can, you can watch me leave

Show me off in your meetings
Introduce me to school friends
But we go to someone else's party
On my birthday
So we cut ties
And throw our hands to the sky
And you can go be misunderstood
With some other guy

Now I'm not your problem
You can do what you please
You can get your kicks without me
(Let next man deal with it)
Now I'm not your problem
You can do what you please
You can get your kicks without me
You can watch me leave
Now I'm not your problem
You can do what you please
You can get your kicks without me
You can, you can watch me leave

(Let next man deal with it)

Now I'm not your problem
Now I'm not your problem
Now, now I'm not your problem
You can do what you please

Drip, drip, drip
Goes the bleeding of my heart
We had a good thing going
But now it's in the past
Drip, drip, drip
Goes the bleeding of my heart
You got to get out there

I know, I know it's over
I know, I know we're through
But can you tell me, where did the love go?
For now we can't be friends
Now we can't be friends

Losing you hit harder than I
Thought it could possibly hit
It exposed the weakness
The weakness that's in me

Drip, drip, drip
Goes the bleeding of my heart
We had a good thing going
But now it's in the past
Drip, drip, drip
Goes the bleeding of my heart
You got to get out there

I know, I know it's over
I know, I know we're through
But can you tell me, where did the love go?
And now we can't be friends
Now we can't be friends

So when I see you out, forgive me
If I can't bring myself to speak
I'm only looking out for myself
Now we can't be friends
Now we can't be friends
And now we can't be friends
Now we can't be friends

When I think of him
There's a sadness that I feel
Because it's clear now
That none of this was real

Drip, drip, drip
Goes the bleeding of my heart
We had a good thing going
But now it's in the past
Drip, drip, drip
Goes the bleeding of my heart
You got to get out there

I know, I know it's over
I know, I know we're through
But can you tell me where did the love go?
And now we can't be friends
(Now we can't be friends)

So when I see you out, forgive me
If I can't bring myself to speak
I'm only looking out for myself
But for now, we can't be friends

ROTHERHITHE

There are some good days
When I don't think of you
I make it through the morning
It's like I'm pulling through
But then there are the bad days
Days filled with yearning
Endless haunted nights
Bleed into restless mornings

The heartbreak rises
It comes in waves
I count the hours
A way to manage it
Now I just kill time
Walking around

But then those are the breaks
I've lost a part of myself
All good things must come to an end
But it hurts for me to know
That I have lost a friend

And in my grieving I spin a snow storm
Waiting for your word but it does not come
I'm trapped in a moment that I just can't get out of
Like the dolphin in the Thames we saw from your window
The last time I saw you you were wearing my trainers
You gave me back a bag filled with my things
I hold it together but outside the Mayflower, I burst into tears

I still have questions
Was it not real for you?
But I know the answer
Because you're not here
If it was true love
Then why did you not fight for me?

But then those are the breaks
I have lost a part of myself
All good things must come to an end
But it hurts for me to know
That I have lost a friend

So I must make myself forget
What we shared
The only picture I kept
Was the one of you walking away

But then those are the breaks
I know I'm not at my best
So back in the ocean
We both will go
But it hurts for me to know
That I have lost a friend

STORIES

There's a story I'm hearing from you
You've told yourself that it is true
How my grip choked and stifled you
Or words to that effect
But I remember stories too
Like the rugby player in your spare room
While Adam slept, you went to town
Can you see now why I held you so tight?

You say, go your own way
But you still keep watching my stories
You say, today's a new day
But I can see you're still watching my stories

There's a story that you told me
About the boy who put the hex on you
But what did you do?
Did you promise him love
And not follow through?
You can feel what you want to feel
You can even call it real
I see now why you can't look yourself in the eye

So we call it quits, let the next one deal with it

You say, go your own way
But you still keep watching my stories
You say, today's a new day
But I can see you're still watching my stories
You say, go your own way
But you still keep watching
Still keep watching my stories
You say, today's a new day
But I can see you're still watching
My stories

And just as I suspect I'm not so easy to forget
I'm not so easy to forget
You took your lucky break and you broke it in two
Keeping tabs on what you lost
We could have had it all
There was so so much we were supposed to do

There was so so much we were supposed to do

Turns out that you're not the chapter I thought you'd be
More like a footnote in my story

MOVING ON

Plastic palm trees fill his room
And the lasers
Leave little green stars on his skin
The room has started to spin
But this is a year of saying yes
So yes

If you say you're ok
Then I'm ok too
So we keep it moving
Make like I never knew you
So I take a lover
In the afternoon
It's time to move on

His skin feels so smooth
It reminds me of you
He's taking a year out to find himself
Sometimes two different things can be true
These days I get so lonely
I only ever let strangers hold me
I used to be so good at this

If you say you're ok
Then I'm ok too
So we keep it moving
Make like I never knew you
So I take a lover
In the afternoon
It's time to move on

I feel the sunlight through his skin
Like lazy days on the shore
Swimming out in the depth of his eyes
Past the point of no return

If you swear you're ok
Then I'm ok too
So we keep it moving
Make like I never knew you
So I take a lover
In the afternoon
It's time to move on

When I was in his arms
I remembered how it felt
To do the things
That we did not
And yeah, it felt right
He said
"When things stop moving, they wither and die"
He said
"I hope what we just did helps you get by"
Get by
Goodbye

EULOGY

You are every kind-eyed man
You are every kind-eyed man
You are every kind-eyed man
That I cannot make stay

I'm truly sorry we didn't make it
To 'Live and Let Die'
I never got to see your favourite Bond
So now and forever I'll be one of those boys
Pretending not to see you on the gym floor
And yes for a while
The heartbreak turned me bitter
But it was only for a little while
I get my love now from different sources
I think it's better off that way
(So they say)

We forget the things we cannot see
And in time you'll forget me
Yeah, every day will get lighter
Meaning will return to your world
Effortless like the laughter
Of the boy and the girl

The boy and the girl
The boy and the girl
The boy and the girl
Do you remember them?

I guess what I learned from you
Is love means different things to different people
You did the best with what you had

All I ever wanted to do was build you up
Help you become who you said you wanted to be
Turns out you're not quite there yet
But the next man I hope you'll be

Remember to stand up for yourself
True greatness is bold not meek
Don't end up chewed up like a gumball
Stuck to someone else's dream
I wish you'd been like your grandfather, the bruiser
Me and him could have had fun
But you were more like your son-in-law, your father
And I hope your dad likes this one

I hope your dad likes this one

BLOC PARTY. Lyrics

22.01.22

COMING ON STRONG

LOVE BOMBS

PIGWIG

LAGOON BLUE

MUSCLEWORKS

CLARK KENT

WORST BIRTHDAY EVER

NOT YOUR PROBLEM

NOW WE CAN'T BE FRIENDS

ROTHERHITHE

STORIES

MOVING ON

EULOGY